I was never prepared for the things primary would give to me. I never knew how much my Heavenly Father loved me until He gave me that blessing. At first I was petrified. I felt like I knew nothing so how I would I teach anything to the children who depended so much on us. I remember leaning so much on my Heavenly Father for direction.
There were times when the spirit would speak so strongly about a certain child that I could not help but go make sure they were ok. Perhaps it was just them knowing that they were thought of as an individual. I am thankful for that inspiration what was given to me.
I am thankful for the many blessings I received by just being present with them. I remember one of the many things that often gave me peace was knowing that our Savior would immediately go to primary to be near the children. That was always comforting.
I am thankful for the many who I served with. I am thankful for their diligence and love for the children as well. I am thankful for the hours I would get to spend preparing thoughtfully about lessons, visits or activities.
One activity will always be a great memory. A day in the life of Jesus. It was remarkable. The spirit had never been felt so strong as we learned and walked through His life. A day that helped me never to forget all that He gave for us.
I am ok now. Sure I still have some feelings of confusion, anger and sadness but it is getting easier. I am thankful that my burden has been made light. I know that the next chapter in my life will still involve 100% of my heart regardless of where that leads me. I will serve with humility and wait for another set of blessings to come my way. I am ready to try to let go and be happy.
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