This Is Me- Take It Or Leave It

I figured I would take this opportunity to write about me.  Strengths and weaknesses and put it all out there. Here it goes....

I am a mom with a child of who I am totally obsessed with.  I love just the simple hug, cuddle on the couch or the silent kisses while he sleeps.  I am in no way a perfect mom but it remains the biggest joy of my life.

I am a wife in which I am not perfect.  I expect a lot and don't show as much thankfulness as I should.  I need to work on this more and more each day.  I have a husband who gives me everything and I sometimes give him nothing.  That is reality and that is me.

I am a nurse.  I enjoy the times when my hands make a difference, which I would like to think is every day I am there.  A simple smile to let them know you care.  Don't get me wrong, there are patients who absolutely get on your nerves and it takes much patience to get thru those nights.  

I am LDS.  While my personal testimony is very strong, I still have times of struggles.  I struggle with people who seem to be so quick to judge before they even know you.  My past is why I am me!  I struggle with those who are less faithful in home teaching and visiting teaching.  Sometimes you need a friend.  I struggle with those less often to help serve and lend a hand while others are simply putting everything into it.  There is no perfect LDS person but then it seems like many expect this cookie cutter LDS person that doesn't always exsist.

I have tattoos.  Yes, as much as I can not take them away they are part of me.  I honestly don't care what you think if you see it.  I can now set the tone for others being more accepting.  While I wish I would have thought about them a little more before I did them, none of them are a regret.  I will no longer hide them on purpose.

I am overweight but I am healthy.  For those who don't know, I have struggled my entire life with weight but more since I had Damian.  I have regular check ups, I do not have high blood pressure, I do not have diabetes, I do not have high cholesterol.  I do have thyroid issues which have caused me to be frustrated about not being able to loose weight like others.  I hate my weight but I also have accepted it.  I obviously have goals of loosing it but I am not going to make unrealistic ideals of what I am to be.  I am me!

I have a bit of OCD.  No I do not count or lock my door 100 times.  I simply like perfection.  I don't think there is anything wrong with wanting perfection, however I do realize that I can not expect it from others.  

I always try to do too much.  I have always been this way.  I have tried so many times to change this part of me but I can't.  I offer my services, time and self to all that is asked of me and sometimes I take on alot.  I suppose I can better this part of me but I also have become an amazingly strong and independent person because of this.

I dislike my curly hair but it is part of me.  Most of the time I straighten it because I was teased so much as a kid.  I embrace it at times but most of the time not.

I have very few TRUE friends.  Honestly I can count them on a few fingers.  Why?  I guess I am guarded with letting others in but I feel more because if you truly wanted to be my friend you would get to know me. These few have really gotten to know me, my struggles, my desires and my strengths.  I wish I had more friends but I am content with the few I have.

I am strong willed, focused, determined, motivated, perfection seeking, loving, kind, compassionate and empathetic.  I have flaws and I have many.  I have many days of sadness, anger and frustration.  I have days of joy, love and complete satisfaction.  All of this is me and I love me!